the forbidden(or forgotten) stuff

MISSING YOU...
"Forbidden Emotions are hard to bury, unspoken emotions are torture"

For keepsake of sweet sweet memories:

1. missed the times he used to twirl my hair. though it hurts most of the time, but i enjoyed it. i'm a sadist. sometimes i get to enjoy the acts of him twirling his hair.

2. missed the times we would go and pack our dinner at our fav hangout. then we would rush home and watch tv and eat our dinner together. desserts: snuggle up in each other's arms.

3. missed the times when i present his gifts to him, i would get a special prize from him.

4. missed those times when we spent chatting about everything under the sun. we could talk like we've known each other for so long. (its hard to find one that you can talk to almost about everything)

5. missed those times when we enjoyed good movies together.

6. missed the times he made bread with egg mayo and asam or prawn maggi concoct with his own recipes for me.

7. missed those times where automatically he would ask me for dinner. and i could tag along wherever he goes.

8. missed those times when he really missed me. and without fail, every morning, i would get breakfast for him and he would smsed me every single day.EverySingleDay. without fail.

9. most importantly, missed those sms-es with the word 'huney' that came buzzing into my phone. missed those goodnight kisses too.(virtual ones la of course)

so ever since this happened, i've stooped to cooking up excuses to ask him out, on his part, he has STOPPED doing all that inviting he used to do. PERIOD.

saddening though. so many changes to cope recently. but no matter how difficult it is to adapt, we still need to understand that life still need to go on. and take it as a challenge as decreed by God.