life = a rollercoaster ride?

Do you think so?

Life has many ups and downs. similarly, the roller coaster ride gives you the highs and lows. and perhaps some rollercoaster gives you sharp bends at corners. and i liken that to moments in your life, when you suddenly experience major changes that you might not know how you would feel till you reach that bend. so when you anticipate the sharp bend during your ride, you prepare yourself. but in life, you know that, there are many things that are happening which are beyond your spectrum of anticipation.

sharp bends in life could bring many different meanings to different people. to sportsmen and women, the world would come crashing down on them if some freak accidents would make them handicapped. think that would def be a big blow to them. to the people living in luxurious lifestyles, having to face the cold hard fact that one day, they would need to live a frugal life would be a sharp bend in their lives. there are many many examples of how each and every single one person out there experiences the sharp bend in their lives. Do you have any sharp bend moments in your life, you wanna share?

i reckon that the decision to convert and become a Muslim would equate the definition of a sharp bend in my life. never would i expect or anticipate at any one point of my life that this decision would affect how i live for the rest of my life. a new me has evolved. priorities have changed. perspectives are different. whether good or bad, only the people surround me would notice the difference. but this aint no performanceand i aint putting up any acts. I choose this path becoz i was given the freedom to choose what i want to believe in.

i took part in a video shoot for the converts' association. for the ladies session, the topic was what reaction would you have if your partner tells you to embrace islam to prepare for marriage with him/her. initially i was only acting as an extra but later on i was 'called in' becoz the director felt that my speech was more articulate that the other lady. oops. i'm sorry. don't mean to snatch your role. becoz the role that i portrayed in demanded a stronger 'voice of anger', i became nervous. stressed. head aches. frankly, i think i can cry better than being angry. haha. so inorder to prepare for the angry side of me, i tried to think of the recent spate of things that happened. but instead it triggered the sadness. after several rehearsals, the director wanted me to express more anger by changing the script again. yeah, i think this was far easier. thank god. the director was an easygoing guy. he kept calling out my name, not becoz i forgot my lines but becoz he wanted more anger from me. some juice of the conversation goes like this:

Befriendee #1: actually i was quite surprised. we've been going out for sometime. we could get along very well. but this would mean that having to change who i am, drawing a different person altogether. as though the present me is not good enough.
Befriender: you sounded quite upset, and you still choose to come for the class?
Befriendee #1: well, its like not much of a choice to me now.besides the religion issue, we kinda of hit off quite well so i thought i might as well accomodate him.
Befriendee #2(that's me): WHY MUST YOU ACCOMODATE HIM? its like we are being forced to convert. is there a way out?
Befriender: u sounded like you were really being forced. but the choice is eventually up to you right?
Befriendee #2: i guess so. and as much as i love him, i think conversion is the only way out.
Just a short script though. when the 'reel take' was over, my headache also went away. phheww... but later on, the director wanted another take of a more relaxed and real session of the befriending class. so we get to talk about our real life opinions of that topic. and we shared about our fears, feelings and thoughts. i will think about it and blog it when it comes back.

its getting late, my 'friend' is calling me to bed... good nitez... sweet dreams to myself again. hehe (;