journey of thoughts

This is a path, which to many find it absurd to embark on. it took me alot of courage and effort to come this far. went through many struggles and tribulations just to embark on this path. but this journey embarkation has triggered many changes in my life. at times, these trials proved to be too overwhelming for me and i had broke down many times becoz of them.

to some, it might just be a case of changing a religion less desirable by many. but to me, it is a journey of finding my purpose of existence and the reason why God created me, the Universe, the heavens and the earth. but in moments like these, muslims at large seemed to be going through a crisis. a crisis which God has sent. but i guess, to see it from a different perspective, it could just sound like 'blessings in disguise'. a test sent by Him, to create awareness among the non-muslims in the light of 9/11 and the recent London bombings.
Pros: non muslims would get curious or interested in the religion.
Cons: media might inadvently create conflict or worse still, a stereotyped report of muslims all over the world.

This is unfair. Muslims are amicable. Muslims are peaceful people and we do not go to war unless people are under extreme conditions to fight for their honour,for food, or for peace. and if the people do really go into a battle, they are instructed not to kill women and the children. there were never any commands to kill people recklessly! it is not so difficult to believe that there is GOD. I had doubts about what i used to believe in and that's why when i had this conversation with my mentor (was a good friend actually but later became a mentor to me, but now maybe we might just not be friends anymore) anyway, he took the trouble to explain about the creations in the universe(ant being the tiniest), the planets, the sun, moon etc etc... it was these significant and yet so reliable objects on planet earth that got me hooked on finding the truth. that was how i got started. food for thought for you....

the country that i've dreamed to venture in has been hit by another round of bombings. i hope the city that i'm actually heading to will be safe and sound from such attacks... looking forward to a place to live big dreams and rest my painful heart and soul...