Ihsan (Best or Righteous Conduct)

In the name of Allah, most Compassionate, most Merciful

'To Allah belongs whatever is in the east and in the west: and whereever you turn, there is the countenanace of Allah. Behold! Allah is Infinite, All knowing.' (2:115)

The third aspect of the concept of Tauhid (attestaion to the Oneness of Allah) after Iman (faith or conviction) and Islam (practical submission and obedience to Allah), is Ihsan.

What is the meaning of Ihsan?

Ihsan in Arabic means: "best conduct, performance of good deeds, righteousness, excellence", etc and basically it pertains to the quality of our attesting to the Onesness of Allah. If Iman serves to strengthen one's conviction, and Islam guides one's practices in life, then Ihsan completes the attestion to the Oneness of Allah.

What is righteousness or best conduct?
Responding to this question, the Prophet Muhammad saw said:
"Ihsan(righteousness or best conduct) - it is that you serve (and worship) Allah as though you are seeing Him, while you see Him not yet truly He sees you". (hadith reported by Muslim)

From this statement, we may understand that the worth or merit of our striving to attest to the Oneness of Allah is in the attitude of doing it - 'as though you are seeing Him'. Although we may have developed a strong faith and are doing the correct practices, ultimately, merit lies deeper than this. Fuller understanding perhaps can be found in another statement of our Prophet Muhammad saw:
"Action is but by intention, and every man shall have but that which he intended..." (hadith reported by Bukhari and Muslim)

Sincerity the crucial criteria
Standard of righteousness in Islam is an absolute one i.e. it must be according to that which is acceptable to Allah. And in the Holy Quran, Allah swt says: ".... they were not enjoined aught but that they should worship Allah sincerely in their faith in Him alone, turning away frm all that is false." (98:5)

From this we must understand that we should never fall prey to conceit nor forget the actual reason for our striving to do good i.e. as an act of attesting to the Oneness of Allah; serving and worshipping only Him. To be sincere means to negate alll other considerations except that it is for Allah alone. This consciousness must accompany all our striving for it to be deservedly categorised as true attestation. Therefore with Ihsan, a Muslim is to always regard himself solely the servant of Allah, always conscious that Allah sees and knows all things both secret and apparent. It is because of this consideration that he patiently perserveres, neither expecting human recognition nor for the purpose of pandering to his vanity and falling prey to the desire to exalth himself. It acts as a genuine act of serving his Creator; to be steadfast whether in public or in private, hoping only for the acceptance of Allah swt, the Lord of the Universe unto whom we shall be made to return.

(Excerpts from Beginners' Manual on Islam by my ustaz Zhulkeflee Hj Ismal)

Examine your heart

In the name of Allah, Most Compassionate, Most Merciful

Islam emphasizes on intention. Intentions are from the heart. Whether your intentions are good or bad, sincere or ostentious, all depends on the condition of the heart.It is mentioned:

On the Day of Judgment no one is safe save the one who returns to God with a pure heart.

'Surely in the breasts of humanity is a lump of flesh, if sound then the whole body is sound, and if corrupt then the whole body is corrupt. Is it not the heart?(Prophet Muhammad saw)'

'Blessed are the pure at heart, for they shall see God. (Jesus a.s)'

(Excerpts from'Purification of the heart' by Hamza Yusuf)

Almost universally, religious traditions have stressed the importance of the condition of the heart. In the Muslim scripture, the Day of Judgment is described as a day in which neither wealth nor children shall be of any benefit(to anyone), except one who comes to God with a sound heart (Quran, 26:88-89). The sound heart is understood to be free of character defects and spiritual blemishes. This 'heart' is actually the spiritual heart and not the physical organ per se, although in Islamic tradition the spiritual heart is centered in the physical. One of the extraordinary aspects of themodern era is that we are discovering aspects about the heart unknown in previous times, although there were remarkable insights in ancient traditions. For instance, according to traditional Chinese medicine, the heart houses what is known as shen, which is spirit. The Chinese characters for thinking , thought, love, the intention to listen, and virtue all contain the ideogram for the heart.

This book which I'm currently reading exposes all kinds of diseases that the heart will develop and what kind of treatment which the scholar recommends in the form of poetic composition. It is a very good book and I'm definitely recommending to all. Well, we might all think that we have a good and sound and sincere heart, but when you read it, you will know what I meant. For Muslims who does really have a sound and sincere heart, alhamdulillah, take the information in the book as reminders.

As for me, tremendous training is undergoing right now, so I'm not fit to give any good advice to anyone. Insya allah, i'll share with you what i've read from there.

Alhamdulillah. Allahu akbar!

What does a Muslim believe in

I do not know what shall I call this: an emblem, artistic calligraphy?But anyway, I took this picture at a neighbourhood mosque. When I was working in my ex company, this mosque was still under construction. But nevertheless, I managed to 'check' that mosque out. It's a nice, cool and quiet place to do some reading. If you are lucky, you get some cool breeze too if it's not too sunny. I like that mosque very much. Again, memories flashed back to my mind.

Every Muslim will know that picture is the word; name of God: ALLAH

A Muslim's 5 pillars of Islam:

1.The declaration of faith:I bear witness that there is no god except Allah and Prophet Muhammad saw is the Messenger of Allah

2. 5 daily prayers.(required diet and nutritions for our soul)

3. Ramadan (fasting)

4. Zakat (purification of wealth)

5. Hajj (pilgrimage to Mecca)

Our tenets of faith: 1. Belief in Allah 2. Belief in Angels 3. Belief in Prophets 4. Belief in His books. 5. Belief in Predestination (Qada and Qadr) 6. Belief in the Last Day

It is that easy. May Allah swt guides us on the straight path and not be blinded by the world. amin

Post Chinese New Year updates

While it was a long weekend break for the non-chineses, my husband and I was busying ourselves visiting our friends and relatives over the 4 days of CNY.


Ever since the day Allah opened up my breast to Islam, i've always tried to wear long sleeves and a cap every time I go out with my parents. Last year's CNY, I wore a bandana to my relatives house and they were already looking at me with weird expressions. This year, with the full hijab on my head, I can imagine more weird expressions on their faces. I might consider covering my 'aurat' in a different manner if my mum puts a request to me about this hijab thing but since she didn't, I decided to be in the way i've always been. Well, it might be quite hard on her, having to answer all the questions from my relatives about my 'strange','malayu' attire. Hope that God gives her an easy way out of all that. amin.

We tried to squeeze in both sides of our relatives in the 1st day. And we also arranged to visit some of our Chinese Muslim friends. Well basically, what the Chineses do during CNY is that we exchange mandarin oranges and some good words (prosperity, health, wealth etc). Thereafter, we just sit down, eat, drink and catch up with each other. One of our Chinese Muslim friend bought 'bak kwa'. (Not bbq pork but bbq chicken) And it's halal.(meat that is slaughtered according to islamic laws) This is the one thing that i missed alot. Heehee. And I helped myself(non-stop) to the bbq bak kwa, ignoring the pleads of my good nafs. :)

It was pretty tiring, having to run so many places in a day. All that pineapple tarts, cashew nuts and cookies, peanut cookies also made me tired.

But the consolation is, that I do not have to get stressed up over with not being able to find a place to pray because I have my husband to 'save' me. We can easily tell my mum that we have other houses to visit and we also can pray before committing ourselves to another visit.

Alhamdulillah.

Gong Xi Fa Cai

Today is Chinese New Year's eve (Chu Xi Wan). And it has been a tradition for most families, to gather at the dinner table for a reunion dinner.

For daughters and sons who had been away for a loong loongg time, this night will be the night where they reunite with their family. And usually, reunion dinners would involve generations and generations of children, grandchildren and great grandchildren...

Steamboat would usually be served.And during the CNY period, the shelves of most supermarkets would be packed with cans and cans of abalone,mushrooms, sea asparagus, limpets and packets of sea cucumber.

This year, my reunion dinner is going to be different because, for the first time, i am going back home with my husband. During my singlehood and i was still living with my parents, reunion dinner wasn't exciting. And my mum would serve steamboat from afternoon to dinner time. Well, the only thing i'm looking forward to was the ABALONE. Yummy...
When my grandparents were around, things were more happening. All my father's siblings, together with their families will be gathered at my grandparents place. After they left this 'dunya', it's just me, my bro and my parents.

This year, we have an additional member in the family. With him, it's much more easier to break away from my family for prayers. I remember vividly, that I had to find places to pray if i'm not near any mosque. And even if i'm near to one, i have to find excuses to go out and pray. And no hijabs were allowed during Chinese New Year.

Everything will be different.

Anyway, i would like to wish all of the Chinese and the Chinese Muslims bloggers out there:

A Happy and Healthy Lunar New Year!

Alhamdulillah.

All Good and Bad comes from Allah

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful

Blessed is He Who sent down the Criterion to His servant, that it may be an admonition to all creatures― (1) He to Whom belongs the dominion of the heavens and the earth: no son has He begotten, nor has He a partner in His dominion: it is He Who created all things and ordered them in due proportions. (2) Yet have they taken besides Him, gods that can create nothing but are themselves created; that have no control of hurt or good to themselves; nor can they control Death nor Life nor Resurrection. (Surah Al-Furqan 25:1-2)

My girlfriend told me a shocking news about her close friend. She was having a bad cough and it went on for almost a few months and it didn't get better. So she went to several GPs but none detected anything serious. But she got worried, and decided to see a specialist. Little did she know that, after going through a scan, she was diagnosed with cancer of the lymphnodes. Oh my God!! There was actually a mass thingy that was growing at a rapidly rate and it was so huge that it rested on the lungs causing discomfort, thus coughing nonstop.

I felt really sad about hearing such news, but i know all good or bad comes from Allah swt. Though we might feel very sympathetic towards our friends for the illness that falls upon them, but we do not have the knowledge or wisdom to know what other kind of blessings that Allah swt has in store for us. It might take alot of faith and trust for one person to feel that there's goodness in whatever that Allah has bestowed upon us, because the word 'alhamdulillah' would not come out from one's mouth or heart so readily while preparing mentally to accept the 'new illness' in the body.

And one more thing i've realised is that, for everything that we are able to do; run, jog, swim, talk, listen, eat, sleep, walk, and not forgetting the most important thing that we do every second of our lives: BREATHE! An ustaz ever said in one of the class which i attended at Darul Arqam about the oxygen that we inhale. If ever Allah swt decides to charge us for the oxygen that we used, we will be broke!

We will not be able to count the blessings that Allah swt has bestowed upon us. Countless!

A 3-year old birthday

In the name of Allah most Compassionate most Merciful

Let there be no compulsion in religion. Truth stands out clear from Error; whoever rejects Evil and believes in Allah hath grasped the most trustworthy hand-hold, that never breaks. And Allah heareth and knoweth all things. (256)

3 years ago, I took my shahadah at Darul Arqam with 2 witnesses. This day marks Ashura, the tenth day of Muharram. Muharram is the first islamic month of the year and Ashura means 10, denoting the date in the month. Shortly after the Hijira in AD 622, Prophet Muhammad saw designated Ashura as a day of fasting from sunset to sunset, perhaps patterned on the Jewish Day of Atonement (Yom Kippur). Traditionally, Ashura commemorates two events: the day Nuh (Noah) left the ark and the day Musa (Moses) was saved from the Egyptians by Allah.
When Jewish-Muslim relations became strained, however, Prophet Muhammad saw designated Ramadan the Muslim month of fasting, making Ashura a voluntary fast, as it has remained among Sunnis.

I recalled i was pretty nervous on that day. I still remember the details. I had bought a white scarf for this special moment to match my white blouse and skirt. My parents were out that morning so i don it before i came out of the house. I hid myself a few blocks away from my block and nervously waited for my witness to pick me up. I was really very excited but he looked normal.

As i have already reserved a slot for this day much earlier, I handed over my IC to the officer and waited outside their office for them to call my name. I filled up the form with my new muslim name (which i have thought for a long time). I remembered i was pondering whether should i add 'nur' or should i not. think and think and think... I decided to put it in. :)

We went into a small room together with the officer and my two witnesses. He asked a few questions to confirm my conversion. I nod my head and signed on the dotted line. Thereafter, i was told to attest the shahadah:
' I bear witness that there is no other god worthy of worship except Allah and i bear witness that Prophet Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah'

and I became a MUSLIM. :)

I could have complete the evaluation on that day but i didn't want to because i still needed more time to polish my prayers and the recitation. So after the conversion ceremony, we went for a meal to celebrate my identity as a new muslim.

And so, here I am today, a Chinese Muslim. whom still celebrate Chinese New Year, speaks mandarin and does not have a Malay husband.

If you ask me why do i convert? My only answer is: Alhamdulillah! Allahu Akbar! Allah swt saved me (not Jesus) and showed me the path to the Truth. No words are able to describe the gratitude i have for HIM alone.

I don't consider myself as an exemplar to others as i am still consistently trying to improve my own weaknesses and insya allah, to be a Mukmin(true believer). Ameen.

(my witness remembered this day. Thanks! :)

Prayers - Your assurance of the Hereafter

I took this photograph in a mosque when i went overseas for a short holiday.

No one was inside the mosque except me and my few other friends. The architecture of the mosque was very magnificent. Subhan-allah.

Surah al Naml 27: 1-5

Ta Sin. These are verses of the Qur'an― A Book that makes (things) clear; (1) A Guide; and Glad Tidings for the Believers― (2) Those who establish regular prayers and give in regular charity, and also have (full) assurance of the Hereafter. (3) As to those who believe not in the Hereafter, We have made their deeds pleasing in their eyes; and so they wander about in distraction. (4) Such are they for whom a grievous Penalty is (waiting): and in the Hereafter theirs will be the greatest loss. (5) As to thee, the Qur'an is bestowed upon thee from the presence of One Who is Wise and All-Knowing

Muharram 1429H

Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh Brothers and Sisters,



Today marks the last day of Zhulhijjah 1428H. And tomorrow will be 1 Muharram 1429H.
Eid Muharram 1429!



As we 'migrate' to a new year, have you made any new year resolutions yet?



Ustaz Shaykh Mohd Ibrahim said that Muslims in this era, though they could not perform any 'migration' liken what our Prophet saw did, we could actually do a spiritual 'migration'. That is, to change from bad to good, or better still, from good to best!

He also quoted some examples so that we could reflect on them:
1. If you don't pray on time, try this year to make sure you pray as soon as the time calls for the specific prayer. Do not procrastinate till the very last minute.

2. If you have always been doing charity and good deeds, resolve to do more. and do it for the sake of Allah, and not for others.

3. Try and wake up for Tahajjud.

4. Read more Quran.

5. Resolve to change your undesirable habits.

I pray that may Allah swt gives us(all muslims over the world) the blessings, strength and constancy to perform all good deeds and supereogatory acts just for the sake of Him, and for the sake of our Hereafter. Amin.

...Death and the Afterlife (continued)

The Traverse

Mankind, after the terrors(mentioned previously), shall be drive to the Traverse, which is a bridge stretched over the gulf of Hell, sharper than a sword and thinner than a hair. Whosoever has in the world kept upright upon the Straight Path (al-sirat almustaqim) shall bear lightly upon the Traverse (sirat) of the Afterlife, and will be saved. But whosoever deviates from uprightness in this world, and weighs down his back with burdens, and disobeys his Lord, shall slip upon taking his first step on the Traverse, and shall go to perdition.

Now mediate upon the terror which shall alight upon your heart at the time when you behold the Traverse and its slenderness, and when your eye then falls upon the core of the Inferno beneath you as your ears are assailed by the moaning and raging of Hell.

You are obliged to walk over this Traverse, despite your weak condition, your palpitating heart, your quaking feet and the burdens which lie so heavily upon your back that you would be incapable of walking upon the flat earth, let alone the sharpness of the Traverse. How shall you fare, then when you have set one of your feet upon it and felt its sharpness, and are compelled to lift your other foot up, while all the time people before you are staggering and slipping off, to be caught by the Angels of Hell with hooks and grapples. You shall watch them toppling over and falling head first towards Hell, with their feet uppermost.

O, how foul is that scene, how difficult that slope, and how narrow that crossing-place!
Look to how your condition shall be when you crawl and ascend upon it, weighed down by the burdens which lie upon your back, glancing to your rightand left at other men as they tumble into Hell. And the Emissary (s.a.w) shall be saying, 'O Lord! Deliver! Deliver!' while shrieks of woe and suffering rise up from the bottom of the Inferno (for many there are who have already slipped from the Traverse). How, then, shall you fare, when your own foot slips, and your contrition avails you not, and you cry in woe and sorrow, saying, 'This is what i used to fear!
Would that I had sent before me something for my ow life! would that I had taken a path with the Emissary! Woe is me! Would that I had never taken so and so as a friend! Would that I were dust! Would that i were forgotten, forgetting! Would that my mother had never begotten me!'....

How do you view your thinking now, when these perils are in front of you? Should you not believe in this, then how prolonged will be your abiding with the unbelievers in the Inferno's depths! Should you believe in it, however, but be heedless thereof and of making preparations for it, out of indifference, then how much have you lost, and how great is your sin! of what use to you is your faith if it does not spur you on to the diligent quest for the satisfaction of God through obedience to Him, and to abandoning acts of rebellion against Him. were there to lie before you no terror save that of the Traverse alone, and the dismay felt by your heart at the peril of crossing it, then even should you receive deliverance it would provide such horror, fear and panic as would always suffice you.... (to be continued)

Remembrance of Death and the Afterlife

I'm currently reading this book by Imam Ghazali r.a under his series of Ihya ulum al-din.... (Revival of Religious Sciences). There are two parts in this book.

1st part covers - Merit in the Remembrance of Death, Lengthy and Brief Hopes, Agonies and Violence of Death, the death of our Prophet saw and the 4 caliphs and their sayings, Sayings of the saints at funerals and cemeteries, the true nature of death and what the dead man undergoes in the grave and lastly the states of the Dead....

2nd part(which was enjoyable yet frightening) covers - Matters concerning the circumstances of the man deceased from the time when the Trump is blown to his Final Residence in Heaven or in Hell, together with a detailed account of the hazards and terrors which shall confront him.
Events:
The Trumpet Blast
The Land and People of the concourse
The Perspiration of the people of the concourse
The Length of the Day of Arising
The Day of Arising, and its Calamities and Names
The Inquisition of Sins
The Scales
The Adversaries, and the Restoration of Wrongs.
The Traverse ('Thread-like Bridge')
The Intercession
The Pool
The Inferno,its Terrors, Torments, Snakes and scorpions.

followed by Heaven and the Varieties of its bliss and many other descriptions...

I would like to share more details on the topic - The Scales

Be not heedless of the Scales. Think upon the flying of the Books to their left and right sides. For after the Inquisition mankind shall be in three parties. One party will be composed of those who have not a single good deed to their credit. In their case there shall emerge from Hell a black creature, which shall snatch them as a bird pecks at grain, and grasp them and pitch them into Hell, which engulfs them. A voice calls out to them,'Sorrow, never to be followed by any joy!"

Another party is composed of those with not a single transgression to their discredit. A voice calls out, saying,'Let those who did praise God abundantly in every state arise!' and they stand up and hasten to Heaven. Then this is done with regard to people who used to stand in the night vigil, and then with those whom no worldly commerce or sale distracted from the remembrance of God. A voice calls out to them, saying,'Joy, never to be followed by any sorrow!'

But a third party, which constitutes the greater part of mankind, still remains. They have mingled good works with ill, and although it may not be plain to them, it is plain to God which of them are those whose good or evil deeds predominate. God, however, demurs from not giving them to know of this, that He many manifest His generousity in pardon, and His equity in chastisement.

So the books and scrolls which contain the good and evil deeds fly up, and the Scales are erected, and all eyes are upturned towards the books: shall they fall into the left scale or the right? Then they look to the Scales themselves: shall they tip in favour of the evil actions or in favour of the good? This state is fearsome indeed, and dazes the minds of all creatures.

Insya allah, next time i'll share some on the topic - The Traverse

P.S: You can get the book at Darul Arqam bookstores or click onto the Wardah Books link on the right side of the blog.

Cyberspace Power

I received an email from a friend before lunch today. It shocked and disturbed me so much that i forgot to take lunch.

The initial email was probably sent out by a non-muslim who could have some prejudices against Islam and it has been circulated in the big big world of cyberspace. I don't know how long that email has been circulated but i could imagine the damage done to the image of Islam would definitely be humongous if it continued to be circulated amongst people who do not know the entire picture of what happened.

The email would not be linked or pasted here as I do not want to continue this mayhem.But i'll give a brief description of what was it about.From the picture, there was a small boy who positioned his hand near the wheel of a vehicle. Below the arm was a towel and near the boy stood another man who seemed to be holding a whistle in his mouth. Followed on, you will witness a terrible expression on the boy's face because the truck's wheel is now running over his arm.

And guess what, the pictures were narrated with the story of this boy who got caught stealing bread in a market in Iran. And his punishment in the name of islam (as it was stated) was to have his hand 'decapitated'. And the composer of the email 'instigated' everyone to pass the email on. And the purpose was to let everyone know what is happening in the name of God and the religion.

The email was forwarded from one to another and another and another.... don't even know where did it originate from. And it fell into the hands of non-muslims, which were ignorant of what actually happened to the boy. Everyone continued to forward because everyone pitied the boy. Who wouldn't? But how sure would you be, if you are the one receiving the email? Do you know the entire story? Do we always let others influence our perception of things? Are we forwarding emails responsibly?

The power of the information technology and the users that revolve around it.

Much attention has been paid to the 'religion for mankind' in this era, especially since after 9/11. This event have led to people detesting the people who were responsible for the bombing, and the religion that these people held on to and then assuming that all other believers are the same. Though it looked quite difficult to convince others that Islam is a religion of peace and love, yet the converts to Islam were on the rise after 9/11. Why?

They are curious about Islam, but they only base our religion on hearsay. Why didn't they seek clarifications from the right source? Since we are living in a multi-racial and multi religious society, shouldn't all of us learn to live in tranquility with one another?

"We the citizens of Singapore,
Pledge ourselves as One United People,
Regardless of race, language or religion,
to build a democratic society,
based on justice and equality,
so as to achieve happiness, prosperity and progress for Our nation"

Muslims are taught to respect every human being, for all creation came from Allah swt.

Respecting others means respecting yourself.

Excellence in the Performance of Ritual prayers

Presence with God is the essence of all acts of worship.

Strive to your utmost to make your performance of the 5 prayers satisfactory, and do that by making your standing,recitation, humility, bowing, prostrations & prayers' other obligations & sunnas complete in every way.

Before entering into Prayer, bring to your heart the awesomeness of the one you wish to stand before, Majestic and High is He.

Beware of communing with the King of Kings with a distracted heart, deeply lost in the valleys of unawareness & whisperings, roaming the places of incidental thoughts and worldly ideas; you would thus deserve to be hateful to God and expelled from His doorstep.

Allah, Transcentent and Exalted is He, looks at hearts and secrets, not at forms and appearances.

The essence and meaning of worship is presence with God. Acts of worship which are devoid of presence are like dust, easily blown away.

"It's all about the HEART"

Who knows you better?

From the day I turned 16, I started my working life till now. For slightly more than a decade already. Because i ain't that clever,my results ain't that fantastic. hence I wasn't able to admit myself into a polytechnic course of my choice. I tried my hands at Shatec, thinking that hotel line would definitely be damn cool. The interview was successful but my mum disallowed. So in the end, I ended up with a job at the Singapore Changi Airport.

Allah swt came 'knocking' at my door and alhamdulillah i accepted the deen and embarked the rest of my journey as a Muslim in XY&Z company.Because when i first joined the company,i wasn't a muslim yet so i kept my identity as tightlipped as possible. Not because i was ashamed to be one but the situation doesn't allow me to say it. Colleagues were anti-islam, anti-malay. Praying at my workplace wasn't easy but alhamdulillah i was near a mosque. but i had to take a feeder bus to the mosque. At times, i could make it for congregation. But during busy times, i had to pray at my workplace. Sometimes i do get 'caught' and when that happens, people wagged tongues and they became suspicious.

When i had the opportunity to change my job, i wore my hijab for my interview. Alhamdulillah, i was successful and even got a better paying job. I was even allowed to don my scarf to work. Prayers wasn't tough to carry out, except that during peak periods, i was so busy that i was Late for my prayers. I felt terrible. Job became terrible too and so i left.

Now, I'm in a place where there's not too much work and i have time for prayers. Alhamdulillah.I might not be near a mosque but there's a musollah here. but usually i don't pray there. i found a secluded place near my building. Alhamdulillah. But i found myself complaining that my work is not challenging and i'm getting bored already. But then again, it was through Allah swt blessings and favours that i get to work here and have time to worship Him. He is giving me the opportunity to have 'concentration' in my prayers without any other disturbances.

Then i realised (i'm only speaking for myself) that i always think i know what i want for myself, always think what is good for myself, always think that i know myself best. But i have failed to realise the most important thing.... that....
Allah swt is most Mighty, most Powerful. He knows everything and whatever that is hidden within our breasts. We came from Him, we are His creation. He knows BEST.

I should never try and question Him. "Why did you give me this instead when i wanted that?"
"Why did you not answer my prayer even though i asked for it so many times?"


Surah al-Mulk 67:12~13

As for those who fear their Lord unseen for them is Forgiveness and a great Reward. And whether ye hide your word or publish it, He certainly has (full) knowledge, of the secrets of (all) hearts. Should He not know― He that created? And He is the One that understands the finest mysteries (and) is well-acquainted (with them).



67:21~22

Is then one who walks headlong, with his face grovelling, better guided― or one who walks evenly on a Straight Way? Say: "It is He Who has created you (and made you grow) and made for you the faculties of hearing, seeing, and understanding: little thanks it is ye give."

Beginnins are the places where endings are revealed,so that whoever begins with God ends up with Him.

He is the one you love and rush to in whatever occupies you, and He is the one you prefer in whatever you turn away from.

Whoever is certain that God seeks him is sincere in seeking Him. He who knows that all matters are in God's hands is recollected through trust in Him. Indeed, it is inevitable that the pillars of this world's house of existence be destroyed and that its precious things be stripped away. For the intelligent man is more joyous over the permanent than he is over the evanescent. His light rays out, glad tidings have come to him. Thus, he turns away from this world, takes no notice of it, shuns it altogether. He does not therefore take it as a homeland, nor does he turn it into a home, but rather, while in it, he arouses his fervor towards God and seeks His help in going to Him. His determination, a riding mount, is restless and ever on the move till it comes to kneel down in the presence of the Holy (hadrat al-quds) on the carpet of intimacy, the place of reciprocal disclosure (al-mufataha), confrontation (al-muwahaja), companionship (al-mujalasa), discussion (al-muhadatha), contemplation (al-mushahada), and viewing (al-mutala'a)

The Presence is the nesting place of the hearts of initiates: they take refuge in it and dwell in it. Then, when they descend to the heaven of obligations and the earth of varied fortune, they do so with authority (al-idhn), stability(at-tamkin), and profundity of certitude (al-yaqin). For they have not so descended to obligations through improper conduct of forgetfulness, nor to fortune through passion and pleasure; but instead, they have entered therein by God and for God and from God to God.

"And say: My Lord, make me enter a truthful entering, and make me go forth a truthful going forth, (Quran 17:80) so that i will see Your strength and power when You make me enter, and will submit and conform myself to You when You make me go out. Give me an authority from You, an ally that helps me or that helps others through me, but not one that goes against me; one that helps me against self regard and extinguishes me from the realm of my senses.

Intimate discourses:

'My God, from the diversity of created things, and the changes of states, I know that it is Your desire to make Yourself known to me in everything so that i will not ignore You in everything.'

'My God, whenever my miserliness makes me dumb, Your generousity makes me articulate, and whenever my attributes make me despair, Your grace gives me hope.'

(excerpts taken from Kitab Al-Hikam)

The Special One in your Life

Marriage is never a bed of roses.

You may have heard this over and over again.

When i was dating, i always imagined marriage to complete the picture of couplehood. Marriage is the answer to dreadful partings. Marriage is the answer to more affection.. When i was dating, i wanted marriage. But now that i'm married, i realised that the picture of marriage is not 'perfectly perfect' the way i imagined it to be.

I was experiencing mixed feelings about this process called 'marriage', that our Prophet (saw) was encouraging his ummah to do.

I still remembered that we were enthusiastically doing some pre-nuptial research about marriage. We went to the library,borrowed this book called 'Tranquil Hearts', a publication by Darul Arqam, compiled by many local ustazs and ustazahs for the marriage guidance course. We also bought a book from Wardah bookstore called 'A Muslim Marriage Guide'. I recommend this book to all lovers who aspires to tie the knot with their special one.

I told myself that i want to apply all the theorotical knowledge into my 'Marriage Practicum'.

When the day came, and days passed.... weeks passed.... i realised that it wasn't that easy. At times, i admit that i had alot of "nonsense thoughts" up in my head. I was struggling. I felt that the whisperings came when the "bad thoughts" arises. This is really bad, i told myself in my prayers. May Allah swt shower upon me His mercy and forgiveness. Astaghfirullah.

And the quote below which crossed my path when i was begging for guidance by Him. Its by a famous shaykh and would like to share with all:

You don't choose whom you love. He chooses them. If you had that choice to choose; then the road would be simple. Whom he puts in your life, is part of your test: to bear with them, to accept them and most of all to love them despite all that they may agitate you with. After all, they come from Him and they return to Him, just like you did and will do. "...And We have made some of you as a trial for others: will you have patience? And your Lord is Ever All-Seer (Surah al-Furqan:20)

Ramadhan is over

Today is the last day of the fasting month.

I'm not excited about approaching Syawal, or even Eidul Fitri. Rather, i'm more sad when i leave Ramadhan.

Leaving the month of mercies, blessings and forgiveness. Leaving the best of all months as what Allah swt has decreed.

Leaving Ramadhan, feeling that i've not accomplished anything pleasing in the eyes of Allah, my One and Only God. My Creator, Sustainer, Cherisher, Nourisher. The One that gives without holding back anything which He thinks is good for me.

Leaving the month where Shaitan gets locked up, and there's no other whisperings or promptings except for your own ego enticing you to do bad stuff or think bad stuff.

I left Ramadhan, not being able to complete even half of the Quran.

I left Ramadhan, not consciously waking up for my Night prayers.

I left Ramadhan, not improving my own self as a true believer.

And i approached Syawal, full of regrets. I do not even know if i get to enjoy my 4th Ramadhan.

But i do hope that for the rest of the Muslim bros and sistas out there have accomplished more than i did.

Nevertheless, i'm thankful to Allah for giving me the opportunity to perform my obligatory fasting for the 3rd time.

alhamdulillah

Reminders of Ramadhan

A Travelling Shaykh said:

"What have we got to show for in this blessed month of Ramadhan, despite fasting year after year?

What have we benefitted from our past Ramadhan?"

We always take for granted that we will meet Ramadhan every year.

Year after year of fasting, what do we want to achieve? is fasting solely just for the sake of fasting just because it's incumbent on every muslim?

Fasting yields many benefits for muslims who yearns getting close to Allah swt.

Fast. For a different purpose and meaning today. For a different perspective in life.

May Allah swt forgive our sins and bestow upon us blessings and accept our fast in Ramadhan. Ameen.


*disclaimer* - i do not consider myself as someone very perfect with my fast nor prayers.I hope that by sharing some really useful and informative articles for other muslims to benefit from it.

Gone back to be with Allah

This bee was found lying dead on the floor at the open space in my workplace.

I hardly get to spot insects this big, especially a bee and so i couldn't resist taking a picture of it. and it's usually unlikely of me to feel connected with insects.

'Connected'? It may seem weird to use this word but after i became a Muslim, i began to view everything that i see from a different perspective.

Being a muslim means you acknowledge that There's NO OTHER GOD except ALLAH and Prophet Muhammad saw is the Messenger of God.

So the next awareness will be; all creations come from God, henceforth they are muslims, even this little friend of ours who have just 'passed away'. That's why i said i felt connected. The passing away of this bee reminded me, that one day, i shall also be called back to God.

Living a life as a muslim brings more purpose and meaning to LIFE. Signs everywhere around me shows the existence of Allah. Only with the decree of Allah, I exist. and with my existence, I acknowledge that Allah is the One and ONLY God that i should turn to. For help, favours, blessings, provisions, sustenance and many many more....

Ramadan - Month of Allah swt

Prophet s.a.w said:



"O People! The month of Allah (Ramadan)has come with its mercies, blessings and forgiveness.

Allah has decreed this month the best of all months. the days of this month are the best among the days and the nights are the best among the nights and the hours druing Ramadan are the best among the hours. This is a month in which you have been invited by Him (to fast and pray). Allah has honoured you in it. In every breath you take is a reward of Allah, your sleep is worship, your good deeds are accepted and your invocations are answered.



....invoke your Lord in all earnestness with hearts free from sin and evil, and pray that Allah swt may help you to keep your fast and to recite the Holy Quran....



...Guard your tongue against unworthy words, and your eyes from scenes that are not worth seeing (forbidden) and your ears from sounds that should not be heard...



... Do repent to Allah for your sins and supplicate with raised hands at the times of prayer as these are the best times, during which Allah Almighty looks at His servants with mercy. Allah answers if they supplicate, Responds if they call, Grants if He is asked, and Accepts if they entreat. O People! your have made your conscience the slave of your desires...



... invoke Allah for forgiveness. Your back may break from the heavy load of your sins, so prostrate yourself before Allah for long intervals, and make this load lighter. understand fully that Allah has promised in His Honour and Majesty that people who perform salat and sajda (prostration) will be guarded from Hellfire on the Day of Judgement...



O People! anyone who during this month cultivates good manners, will walk over the Sirat (bridge to paradise)on the day when feet will tend to slip...



Whomever offers the recommended prayers during this month, Allah will save him from Hell, and whomever observes his obligations during this month, his reward will be 70x the reward during other months. Whomever repeatedly invokes Allah's blessings on me, Allah will keep his scale of good deeds heavy, while the scales of others will be tending to lightness. Whomever recites dring this month an ayat of the Holy Quran, will get the reward of reciting the whole Quran in other months...

O People! the gates of Paradise remain open during this month. Pray to your Lord that they may not be closed for you. while the gates of Hell are closed, pray to your Lord that they never open for you. Satan has been chained, invoke your Lord not to let him donimate you.

Hope the above inspires you to do more good, and avoid the forbidden.

May Allah swt gives us the strength, power, perserverance and patience and iman to carry out our ibadah(worship) sincerely and wholeheartedly for the sake of Allah swt. Ameen.