Have anyone of you ever wondered how did this Xmas day come about? if it derives from the birth of Jesus Christ, does it mean that only Christians celebrate? but unlikely not... people or rather believers of other faiths do join in the fun of exchanging prezzies (i was one of them too)... the fun based on the philosophy of giving and sharing, or passing around love to the people around you...
and this year marks a different identity for me. so i'm leaving Xmas out. no xmas cards, no prezzies and no parties... it's not a sad thing, and it doesnt mean that i've stopped loving, giving or sharing... without xmas, i'm still doing it 24/7 (except when i'm sleeping though!) skipping xmas it's also a good opportunity to save loads of money on cards and postages. but i think i can still use up the remaining cards from last year... hmmm... nope i can't... too late for that liao...
except that i had to prepare 5 presents because 3 were my colleagues and 2 others were my class mates. i didnt prepare any xmas gifts for Linus* this year. ever since last year preparation for his xmas present, i've kinda exhausted all ideas on what to give him. i gave him all sorts of vouchers (with stored value r and its redeemable @ anytime) for all kinds of scenarios. to date, i couldnt recall if he ever used them. perhaps he thinks that they are useless and childish, ignoring the fact that i realli realli thought about this whole thing for so long...
anyway, i spent my christmas eve, half day at work and another half day outside alone. in a less crowded sub urban area. then around evening, i popped by my friend's shop. the guy was there not long after i arrived. wondered if anyone sent him a mail that i was here. after browsing at her new arrivals, i prepared for prayers. thereafter i went for religious classes with my friends at lavender street..
today,i stayed at home all day long... except when i went out to the coffeeshop to get chicken wings. finally got the chance to dine with my brother because he's HOME. we didnt talk much because our eyes were glued to the TV.
well, christmas to me now seems just like a normal day, passing by me in a blink of my eyes...
but i can still wish the readers of this boring blog;
Merry Christmas and more importantly, have a Great New Year in 2006!!!
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Post D&D updates...
Phew!! The dinner&dance didnt turn out as scary as i imagined. Thank God, i wasn't the odd looking one in the entire ballroom. there were other employees who didnt dressed up as directed. and as me and my other colleagues were waiting for the doors to be opened again (because we were late) we saw some dressed to kill, and some dressed to win the 'Best Dressed Table' for the night... There was Flintstones, South African tribe, the Red indians, the Safaris people etc... they really wore the attire that the Flintstones wore!! sorry guys, no digicam yet. no photos to upload for you to see...
i was given a muslim table. and was seated with several other people whom i dont know which department were they from. nope my colleague wasnt seating with me. and because i was late, the only seat left was facing the door and the stage was behind me. when i got seated, they looked at me as though i was an alien. i ignored the stares and decide to enjoy the performances. the sales presentation was very long and my stomach was growling with hunger. my colleauge told me that there was an empty seat at her table but i told her that i need to stay here a little longer because i was very hungry. and guess what, when i was almost done filling my stomach, she had left with her boyfriend.
so i stayed on for the lucky draw. the prizes were enormous and attractive. the Flintstones won the big prize of $3888 cash prize for the Best Dressed table. the top three prizes were trips overseas with a few thousand dollars for shopping... and the Grand prize was a trip for 2 to Paris with $3000 spending power! oh no, i didnt get anything from there.
after the lucky draw, most of the employees left... maybe the party animals stayed... though there was no prize for me, but at least i managed to enjoy a sumptuous 7 course dinner.
i was given a muslim table. and was seated with several other people whom i dont know which department were they from. nope my colleague wasnt seating with me. and because i was late, the only seat left was facing the door and the stage was behind me. when i got seated, they looked at me as though i was an alien. i ignored the stares and decide to enjoy the performances. the sales presentation was very long and my stomach was growling with hunger. my colleauge told me that there was an empty seat at her table but i told her that i need to stay here a little longer because i was very hungry. and guess what, when i was almost done filling my stomach, she had left with her boyfriend.
so i stayed on for the lucky draw. the prizes were enormous and attractive. the Flintstones won the big prize of $3888 cash prize for the Best Dressed table. the top three prizes were trips overseas with a few thousand dollars for shopping... and the Grand prize was a trip for 2 to Paris with $3000 spending power! oh no, i didnt get anything from there.
after the lucky draw, most of the employees left... maybe the party animals stayed... though there was no prize for me, but at least i managed to enjoy a sumptuous 7 course dinner.
Friday, December 16, 2005
Pre dinner and dance blues
Update!!!
Work is still as busy... stress is piling up... the hours of sleep needing to make up is accumulating day by day... sometimes i find myself asking this question: "do i really have to work so hard to get this much of money?but i'm not commanding a high post or a high salaried job?" i hope when things slowed down, there's time to take a break before i get posted to another project site...
Personal life... didnt get better... though i'm working near where Linus* stays, we still couldnt meet up as often. this used to bug me alot but as work tolls me away, i don't have the time to think about such matters anymore. i mean i still think about it (literally) but lesser frequency... haha... there were kind and concerned souls leaving comments, suggesting that i have a talk with him. thanks folks, this method has been tried and tested. It didnt work on him! i've tried many ways but all failed. perhaps its a sign to give up hope and let go... maybe it's the issue of being 'something different'... i realli dun know...
On the lighter side of life, islamic classes on thursdays are still as interesting as ever. ustaz had listed down close to 80 types of enormities to avoid... i went WOWwww.... wow, not because i'm fascinated but 'wowdering' how to avoid them... i dont consider myself as an exemplary muslim (as yet) but i'm trying hard working on it. well, not to Show Off definitely but just for my good old sake... i'll be looking forward to the next class, whereby he would be elaborating on all the enormities that he has given...
tomorrow is our company's dinner and dance. being a new employee of this co, no matter what, you have to make known your attendance otherwise your bosses will 'mark' you and brand you 'anti social'. true or not? it's a SURVIVOR theme and i'm not going there in any greenish make up or camo attire. simply 'borrowing' the colours of the theme by wearing a green and brownish scarf i borrowed from my friend, a green jacket i bought online from my friend's junk shop and my kaki-coloured pants. TahDa!!! the last thing on my mind is not to be the odd one out in the entire ballroom. that would be the scariest and most hatted moments if that's gonna happen!
I think the best consolation would be looking forward to the food.... Oopss, i hope i didnt sound like a glutton...
Work is still as busy... stress is piling up... the hours of sleep needing to make up is accumulating day by day... sometimes i find myself asking this question: "do i really have to work so hard to get this much of money?but i'm not commanding a high post or a high salaried job?" i hope when things slowed down, there's time to take a break before i get posted to another project site...
Personal life... didnt get better... though i'm working near where Linus* stays, we still couldnt meet up as often. this used to bug me alot but as work tolls me away, i don't have the time to think about such matters anymore. i mean i still think about it (literally) but lesser frequency... haha... there were kind and concerned souls leaving comments, suggesting that i have a talk with him. thanks folks, this method has been tried and tested. It didnt work on him! i've tried many ways but all failed. perhaps its a sign to give up hope and let go... maybe it's the issue of being 'something different'... i realli dun know...
On the lighter side of life, islamic classes on thursdays are still as interesting as ever. ustaz had listed down close to 80 types of enormities to avoid... i went WOWwww.... wow, not because i'm fascinated but 'wowdering' how to avoid them... i dont consider myself as an exemplary muslim (as yet) but i'm trying hard working on it. well, not to Show Off definitely but just for my good old sake... i'll be looking forward to the next class, whereby he would be elaborating on all the enormities that he has given...
tomorrow is our company's dinner and dance. being a new employee of this co, no matter what, you have to make known your attendance otherwise your bosses will 'mark' you and brand you 'anti social'. true or not? it's a SURVIVOR theme and i'm not going there in any greenish make up or camo attire. simply 'borrowing' the colours of the theme by wearing a green and brownish scarf i borrowed from my friend, a green jacket i bought online from my friend's junk shop and my kaki-coloured pants. TahDa!!! the last thing on my mind is not to be the odd one out in the entire ballroom. that would be the scariest and most hatted moments if that's gonna happen!
I think the best consolation would be looking forward to the food.... Oopss, i hope i didnt sound like a glutton...
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
catching up...
Its been almost a month since i started on this new job. so many things have changed ever since i took up this job offer. i can't surf or blog as often as i could the last time i was with my previous company, times where i could knock off on the dot and dont have to work OT or worry a single bit about work, and i don't get so much of pressures from customers.
well, its not that i couldnt handle the stress... i'm not alone. my colleagues are suffering at times too... the only consolation is that we have one another to pour out our woes and anger. we would sometimes laugh at one another about the way we handle their problems. they would start cursing or swearing at their customers, well, err hemm... me, as a muslim, cursing and swearing vulgarities would be the last thing on my mind. but actually, it shouldnt exist at all. The furthest i've gone would just be: " Irritating/Sickening piece of S*&??!! " Ooopsss... i know this shouldnt happen. everytime, i would quickly ask for God's forgiveness...
and that swift and prompt response i've developed seemed to be working when i'm performing my prayers regularly... but i've realised that my indecent language resulted in the 5days off i've taken due to M.N. Oh my dear God, please help me............. and my colleague as well... and yeah, i've got another muslim colleague. she's a Capital M muslim. a Modern era one. no prayers. no tudung. menu 60% halal only. and vulgarities are common. i'm not picking on her but rather she has my sympathies. why? because of all the above + she wasnt supportive of the religion that she was born with.
so this afternoon, i was pissed off (to the brink of going nuts) by an owner. after hanging up the line, i couldnt control and went F*%&. my other female chinese colleague heard and told my malay colleague. she laughed and then told me to take out my tudung because i sweared. I quickly prayed to God in silence asking for forgiveness. i didnt mean it but i just couldnt take it!!!!! Previously, she also told me not to wear my tudung to a Dinner&Dance. i dont know why she would say that but i sincerely prayed to God that she would return back to shore soon.... the reason why i tell you this serves as a reminder to others if you heed the advice...
as for myself, i need to practise more self-constraint....... cant let this happen anymore!!
well, its not that i couldnt handle the stress... i'm not alone. my colleagues are suffering at times too... the only consolation is that we have one another to pour out our woes and anger. we would sometimes laugh at one another about the way we handle their problems. they would start cursing or swearing at their customers, well, err hemm... me, as a muslim, cursing and swearing vulgarities would be the last thing on my mind. but actually, it shouldnt exist at all. The furthest i've gone would just be: " Irritating/Sickening piece of S*&??!! " Ooopsss... i know this shouldnt happen. everytime, i would quickly ask for God's forgiveness...
and that swift and prompt response i've developed seemed to be working when i'm performing my prayers regularly... but i've realised that my indecent language resulted in the 5days off i've taken due to M.N. Oh my dear God, please help me............. and my colleague as well... and yeah, i've got another muslim colleague. she's a Capital M muslim. a Modern era one. no prayers. no tudung. menu 60% halal only. and vulgarities are common. i'm not picking on her but rather she has my sympathies. why? because of all the above + she wasnt supportive of the religion that she was born with.
so this afternoon, i was pissed off (to the brink of going nuts) by an owner. after hanging up the line, i couldnt control and went F*%&. my other female chinese colleague heard and told my malay colleague. she laughed and then told me to take out my tudung because i sweared. I quickly prayed to God in silence asking for forgiveness. i didnt mean it but i just couldnt take it!!!!! Previously, she also told me not to wear my tudung to a Dinner&Dance. i dont know why she would say that but i sincerely prayed to God that she would return back to shore soon.... the reason why i tell you this serves as a reminder to others if you heed the advice...
as for myself, i need to practise more self-constraint....... cant let this happen anymore!!
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