Marriage changes oneself

Marriage-hood. (if there's such a word)

Age is catching up, and a woman's biological clocks goes ticking away. Soon, i will be entering it and becoming a part of the 'community' in a few months time.

Currently,i'm making preparations for our wedding with my husband-to-be. Its a challenging process. We had so many kinds of decisions to make; type/brand of appliances; colours for our tiles, walls, dining table, cabinets etc; design of our wedding card; type of caterer; type of theme for the wedding; budget for every single expenses; and the list just goes on and on and on.............

So in the midst of making all these decisions, there were many trials and difficult times faced by both of us.

When i think of the trials that we faced, it's only very trivial. but there's always niakmah (wisdom and blessings) for us. Lessons for us to learn from our mistakes.

This recent shopping experience at the hardware shop made me learn alot of things. I knew that if he had raised up the issue of my attitude then surely i'm in the wrong and i need to change. I cannot feed my ego and think that whatever that i say or do is right and he is wrong. i found myself crying to God, seeking forgiveness from Him. I truly love him and i really want to work out things with him.

Ego of a human being can really destroy things. shaitan blows whisperings into our ears, to create mischief among couples. If i had succumb myself to shaitan, i would not see myself apologising to him or would even think that there's nothing wrong with the comments that i passed. whatsoever.