Thursday, February 01, 2007

Blogging momentum has resumed

YES!Finally, the PC at home is 'alive and kicking' now.becoz the other day,i decided that i should save myself the torture and misery of spending hours and my hard earned $$ in the cybercafe to send my resumes. so i dug out $60 SGD and paid a 'stranger technician' to fix this PC.

First few days when it started working again, i logged into this bloggers' website. but my mind went BLANK!!! perhaps i had too many things on my mind, so the 'juices for blogging flair' wasn't functioning. Heh heh... as many things have happened recently, this is the night to blog it all out..................

1. Blogger.com has 'better-ed' this blogging thingy. so i took the chance to switch. but i think u wont see much changes in here till i'm pretty much settled down with my job search.

2. i had sent out so many resumes, i realised that i should spent more time personalising the template according to the industry that i'm targeting rather than using one template to suit all. that's bad right?

3. took the opportunity to quickly go online and fill up all the online job application forms.. i think i can be blindfolded and my fingers would just do the job. information from my personal particulars to the jobs that i held are all on the keyboard. haha...

okay, and now the serious and sad part...

anyone who had followed through my conversion story would probably know that my parents ain't happy or least supportive of my decision to convert.and they have never allowed me to cover my 'aurat' islamically when i go out with them. so well now that i'm currently unemployed, instead of being supportive, they were 'disillusioned' by the fact that i was covering up islamically for interviews and i am RUINING my chances of getting employed.

yes, i was sad. i cried all the way to the place i was supposed to meet my friend. i know to others this might be the tiniest thingy to cry over but i was just sad. i really thought my parents were okay with my decision now that it has been for 2 years already. but it proved otherwise.
so last night, over dinner, my dad 'shot' me again.and my mum joined in. (they saw me covered up,looking so much like a 'malay' while making my way home one night)

D: i tell you ah, if u are to cover up like what we saw u that night, u will never be able to get a job.
M: don't cover until like that la. so malay looking. how to get job like that?
......... silence from me......... all the way......... (lucky i was preparing to go out)..........

the other day, my mum said she was instructed by my dad to tell me this.
in order to find a job,she said:
M: Daddy said You better not cover up. and you should not be using your muslim name, otherwise its hard to get employed.
Me: then would all muslim gals be unemployed?' did u see any muslims jobless?
M: no lah, chinese muslim makes it more difficult.
Me: what's so difficult?i'm a human being too. if its difficult getting employed, it would be my quali that's causing the problem, not my dressing up.

and i really felt that God will assist me in times of hardship and difficulties. i wished i could tell them this.

This is how strong i feel about my faith and putting my trust in Him.