How much do u know?

Enough of football right?

I wanted to blog and share some knowledge of what i've gathered from my classes to everybody but because i've delayed my 'blog posting' , hence my mind now is in a blank.

And furthermore, my PC is blinking away. macam it is going to die on me soon... I really can't wait to get a new PC for myself...

Oh btw, i hope to implement some changes for myself about the way i present my thoughts here.
Got to write lesser of sad stuff, Linus* stuff, goondu and silly stuff, more of inspirational or events i would love/need to remember stuff etcc... so actually, i've edited some posts previously... esp of Linus* since that chapter is already closed....

i'll be back soon folks!!!

Celebrate Victory!

RAFA TARGETTING FA CUP GLORY IN MAY Mark Platt 21 March 2006

Rafael Benitez spoke of his burning desire to see Liverpool lift the FA Cup in May as he basked in the glory of the club's emphatic 7-0 quarter-final victory over a beleaguered Birmingham City at St Andrews.

The Reds romped to their all-time record away win in the competition thanks to goals from Sami Hyypia, Peter Crouch (2), Fernando Morientes, John Arne Riise, an Oliver Tebily own goal and Djibril Cisse.

They now await Friday's semi-final draw with eager anticipation and a clearly satisfied Benitez said afterwards: "We have already won one cup this season, the Super Cup, and we hope the FA Cup can be the second. "We always want to do well in the cups and this competition is no different. The FA Cup is very important for us. We have confidence and will try to do the same things again in the next round but we have to take one game at a time and see what happens. "I am delighted with the final result and the performance of the players tonight. They worked really hard and it is the first time in my professional career that I have won by seven goals. The players wanted to keep scoring and were determined to keep a clean sheet. "I was particularly pleased with the return of Momo Sissoko. This was really good news for us. He showed great character." Asked if he had any sympathy for his under-fire Birmingham counterpart Steve Bruce, Benitez added: "Games like this are difficult for a manager. I thinkBirmingham worked hard but to start a game and then suddenly find yourself two down after five minutes is never easy. He can be proud of the effort his players put in and I do feel some sympathy."

p/s: Guys up there in the picture, pleaseeee keep up the peak performance against the match with Everton okie?

A day of discoveries

Today I discovered the power of 'taqwa' (consciousness of God). My recent lessons were mostly emphasized on developing taqwa, so that we could attain a level much closer to God. Because the consciousness of God in our self isn't just about thinking of Him when u deem u need help but consciously, effortlessly and constantly, every single thing that you do, you Remembers Him. He is everywhere. and He is closer than man's jugular vein. He also tells us that when we call out to Him in prayers, He hears and He answers.

as we all know, sometimes work carries us far far away from the remembrance of God, but if we practise 'taqwa', no matter how busy you are, God should always be constantly remembered. in every single step you take or every stairs you climb, in the back of your mind, you would always remember that God is watching over you. and has knowledge of all your words and actions. and so because i was constantly fed with all those verses from the Quran by the ustaz, i'm beginning to be much more aware of what i think or act. and that every action or thought should be inline with what a muslim should do or should not. very cautious and conscious. knowing of the consequences of incurring the wrath or punishment of God, i was coming quite close in slowly reforming of how i treat others. I'm trying my best becoz maybe i need to kick off some hard core habits.
so now, this is the power of Taqwa. this is the beauty of Islam.

Today is also Linus* birthday. and i think Allah swt sent me a reminder today. about what i did. about what had happened since 2months back... Previously, i had made plans about what to give him for his birthday present. i had also planned a sumptuous date and dinner for him in advance. but Allah decrees that i should lose him way before his birthday comes. Allah decrees that hurtful words should come out from his mouth to tell me that i was never considered becoz no outcome would come out of us since no decisions could be made between us. and there and then he left with someone new by his side. i had a hard time and i struggled through. alhamdulillah (all praise belongs to God) i survived. friendship between us survived through. and we continued keeping in touch. friends had laughed at how foolish i was to 'cling' on him since he had already clarified his position. and i was to stop contacting him at all. i knew i couldnt do it. maybe he could or probably he would. Just One fine day. so am i gonna be thrown aside when he decides to do that act again?

so i met him and passed him his presents. in a huge box. with several surprises inside. a day before his actual birthday of course. (my priority was of course downgraded) he thanked me in millions for my effort. and i replied 'oh, dun mention. you are welcome.' blah blah blah.... then later part of the night, struggling to keep my eyes open, i recorded a stupid video clip of me singing a birthday song for him from the inspiration i got when he first gave me a birthday video clip in 2004. come 0000 hrs, i send out the MMS. no reply. hmmm... okay, he must have fell asleep. so i went to bed as well.

As usual i would send him a sms to ask about his day but he 'suddenly disappeared'. two sms went out. three. No reply. kinda worried at first, so i called him. Phone was ringing but no one picked up. Okay i thought. 3 possibilities.
1. in meeting.
2. didnt hear.
3. with GF.
*most prob, is number 3 possibility*
so of course i stopped sms-ing liao... but later when he replied, he didn't want to answer any single question about where did he go for celebration etc... well, yes he has the right not to reveal and what more, the right to go out with any pretty girl right??

Chapter closed.

She touched my heart

Ever since i began blogging about my stories of my journey in islam, i had received numerous comments on the blog that i've created for this special journey. some were sweet and some were intriguing, and at times sarcastic too. but never mind, it didnt hinder me from writing more...

one or two stayed and the rest were just passer-bys... the max that i did was to link those who seemed interested to make friends with me, with no bounds on race or religion or colour. but never had i come so far as to exchange email address with the people whom i never met till this very recent blog that i created ever since i moved my house from blog.com

well, she's a convert too when she first visited my weblog. i was ecstatic. totally fantastic!! much later, i got hold of her weblog too and i began reading her writings ... and so it got started and we exchanged our stories of conversion. and from her stories that she re-told to me, she touched my heart and moved me to tears. really. i admired her courage. i feel that i got so much to learn from her.

i think i want to meet her. insya allah. if we really meet, 24hours would not be sufficient for us. right??

i have lots and lots of good things to tell you about her but for the meantime, i'm keeping the 'cat in the bag' first since we only exchanged it among ourselves. unless she give permission. but the least i could tell you that she's a got beautiful name and this is her

link

Just right behind you Stevie!!!!

STEVIE: WE HAVE TO WIN ON WEDNESDAY Paul Rogers 13 March 2006

Steven Gerrard believes that nothing less than three points against Fulham on Wednesday night will do for the Reds if Liverpool are to maintain their grip on third place in the Premiership.
Defeat at Highbury on Sunday cut the gap between Liverpool and the Gunners to just eight points but a win against Fulham at Anfield this week could see the Reds restore their 11-point advantage. After the pain of the Highbury loss, the game against Chris Coleman's side is simply one we must win, claims the skipper. - yes, indeed that was yet another heartbreaking and painful match to watch after their defeat against Benfica.

"As captain, I'm deeply disappointed for the supporters," Gerrard said of Liverpool's final ever game at Highbury. "I thought we played a lot better in the second half, but we didn't do enough to win the game. "It's been a disappointing week and now we need a big reaction. We've got Fulham at home and we need to win to ensure we stay in this top four. We've got to get maximum points. There's still a lot to play for. - you better be disappointed Captain Stevie. there's so many supporters all over the world supporting for LiverpoolFC. Pleaseeee motivate your fellow mates in the team.. i would suggest u talk to Rafa, to get Milan Baros back, better still if you need to trade Morientes to get him back. i'm all hands and legs to support your decision.

"We want to reward the fans with the FA Cup and qualify for the Champions League. It's not all doom and gloom, but I need to pick myself and the team up." believes that nothing less than three points against Fulham on Wednesday night will do for the Reds if Liverpool are to maintain their grip on third place in the Premiership. - you better hurry captain!!! We are not gonna let you suffer any humiliation and defeat. no action and talk only just makes the supporters worried about your 3rd place positioning.

Defeat at Highbury on Sunday cut the gap between Liverpool and the Gunners to just eight points but a win against Fulham at Anfield this week could see the Reds restore their 11-point advantage. After the pain of the Highbury loss, the game against Chris Coleman's side is simply one we must win, claims the skipper. - Captain, once again the LFC supporters must say that, we not only must WIN but we DEFINITELY have to WIN!!!!!!!!

time

Its been a long long time since i blogged out here...

How's everyone doin'? Busy?

the reason for my disappearance was due to the fact that i had been so very busy of late. with projects, classes and more classes, catching up with friends etc... so busy that getting home after 11pm is the norm thing nowadays... my mum is questioning my late noshows too... i hope she's not assuming something negative though.

somehow 24hours never seemed enuff, esp when sleep is insufficient. ironically, the hours that i spend sleeping is lesser than what i've spend on working (or is it meant to be like this?) so by the time i get home, after i finished my prayers, i go straight to bed. didnt even read my books. been missing out too much on them. bad... real bad... and i missed blogging too...

i'm sure u people do share the same sentiments. as u grow older, the more responsibilities u carry on ur shoulder, the more things u need to get committed, the lesser time u have for yourself. now that i'm not attached with anyone right now, i've been thinking that prob Linus* is busy with gf most of the times liao. wonder how's everything for the both of them??

whatever it is, i hope everyone who comes to my blog often think about the most cherished people around you... spend time with them, let them know that you cherish and value them (whether is it gf or bf, husband or wife, parents etc). dont let time take them away... i also hope that in the near future, when this project that i'm involved is pretty much settled down, i would have time to accompany my parents often...

if preferably, STOP my mum from going to the temple more often. haha...
that's my ULTIMATE GOAL....

Just the right kind

Today i'm gonna relate a story. an experience which left me quite sad and disappointed.i've always been taught to have a good impression of others and never be judgemental so bear in mind this isn't a stereo-typed version. Its my personal lesson and something i would like to share in view of what the non muslims would think when this scenario happens:

there were a group of colleagues meeting up to have lunch together. it was a mixture of muslims and non muslims and i happened to be one of them. they were gathered at an 'ulu' shopping centre with 2 fast food joints, a hawker which hasnt operate and a food court with only a halal foodstall. they contemplated for 4 minutes, finally deciding on the food court upstairs. while making their way up, unexpectedly another muslim spotted a thai seafood restaurant. everybody including her was pretty excited and started looking at me to seek approval.

i stared at the signages with pictures of the food for 2mins.
a non muslim exclaimed:" see, there's no pork. you can eat the chicken."
the other muslim said: "you can eat prawns, and there's vegetables."
to avoid all the attention, i told them okay okay. just before we stepped in, the waiter at the entrance prompted: 'this is not a halal restaurant.' they nodded and walked in. i suddenly realised that i cannot succumb to such desires of thinking that this restaurant is halal to proceed. i sat down and opened the menu.

one big word appeared: PORK
and i told myself: NO WAY!!!! so i went ahead and tell them to go ahead and i would go buy my own food elsewhere. the muslim said to me; 'the waiter told me that the rest of the items are safe.' hmmm.... when pork is cooked together with rest of the dishes, its safe?? as there were other non muslims around, i didnt want to embarrass her like that but i indirectly told her that it's haram. and she continued anyway... i could also sense that the people around were carrying 'strange looks' at the both of us.

i could see that they are confused. perhaps they would view me as being rigid or extremist while the other muslim was much more flexible with food regulations. would this scenario destroy the originated message to dawah that all muslims should avoid places where pork is cooked???

i didnt laugh at her but somehow i felt sad and disappointed. sad for her and disappointed with myself. previously on another occassion when i went out with her, i actually got carried away and neglected my prayers. i was afraid of letting her wait for me to finish my prayers when i actually should be afraid of Allah for missing my prayers without valid reasons. i didnt set a good example to her. and today, this had to happen. i reprimanded myself for not emphasizing but yet hesistant because i might not be wise enuff to use the correct approach. aarrgghhh....... i hate myself

nonetheless,insya allah i hope that she continues to read the Quran translation i gave her and wake up soon enuff. (put it abruptly) or maybe she could be able to start somewhere by beginning to change her 'haram menu' slowly.

and i remembered what the ustaz always said about people having strange thoughts about this strange religion. i dun know how he phrased it. will tell u guys next week.

sometimes i wish i could find and spend more time with the people 'with the right kind of religious priorities'...